- inside-out

Romeo, I’ve got a feeling that things are about to get wild! I have been dreaming about liars and I’m afraid it’s some kind of a warning. Lately people are acting crazy, don’t you think? I might get crazy too and, beware, I’m taking you with me.

These past few weeks I simply couldn’t hear my heart, my thoughts were louder and feel like they will linger. It’s like I’m deaf, people can say anything, but I don’t actually hear them. I don’t know why, but I just don’t. I believe in what I feel and that’s it, nothing more.

God knows you’re my only Romeo and I hope you know as well. I’m sorry if I hurt you, that’s definitely not my intention but I have this strong need to always be as honest as I can with you so, here it goes: Today, even if it’s just for this moment, I cannot trust you. I’ve seen you staring and smiling to another person, I’ve read all of the messages you kept secretly in the corner of your eyes and I’ve listened to your silent voice that said: in this very moment, I don’t want you. I don’t mind if I will want you even more in the next second, right now I just don’t, at all. And as I was listening to that, I needed you. In that very moment you did not want me.

Also, I wouldn’t be completely honest if I didn’t tell you what I’m about to: I have just lost my faith, I don’t know why, but I know you are the only one who can bring it back. Just tell me I’m the only. No, not with your mouth, shut it! I don’t want to hear it, I need to know. I need to feel.

- missing you

Long time, no see! How have you been, Romeo? Holiday over here was quite bad, I needed you and you were not with me in person. I felt betrayed.

I felt just like we were falling appart so, are we? I honestly do not think so, I just needed to ask. First because I really felt it and second because I am a little bit lonely today. Ignore me if you may.

What if I find you in another person? I know you do not mind, you are a hell of a scoundrel. You know you are the only one to me and you will always be, so stop being such a narrow-minded little guy and look at my eyes and say whatever you want to, because it would be nice to hear something today for a change, it has been so long since I last heard your voice. (I know it was probably yesterday, but feels like a lifetime to me).

By now, I have nothing more to say, unless what you already know: I miss you. I madly miss you today.

May the wind bring us together tonight.

- long night

I feel so stupid, Romeo. You know, today was quite good for a rainy day. I couldn't expect more than watching movies, writting some letters to you or looking for you in another arms. As a matter of fact, that has been my routine. I feel as though I cannot live without you anymore. How am I supposed to let you go now? I couldn't, I would die.

Don't you dare saying that you already know me, because you simply don't. You have no idea what I'm capable of. I could give you every single piece of my heart as long as you put them together and I really do trust you would do that, but you've found me heartless. Will you give me yours?

Haven't you noticed? I'm tired of taking care of people, I strongly need to be taken care of. So why aren't you here tonight? I wish I could wrap around your arms and sleep. There's no need to talk tonight, you would understand every little thing just by looking at my eyes.

The thing is I can't trust anyone, I have lost my faith. I should have given up by now, but I'm holding loose just because I know you are real, Romeo. And you are everything to me.

The word was on the street that you've been talking about me a lot. Does it mean anything? I can't stop talking about you either, but I talk to myself. You're the most beautiful secret I have got, I wouldn't share it with anyone else but the walls of my bedroom. By the way, let's share these walls, I need you here tonight. No need to talk, no need to move, I just need to feel that you're near.

Turn off the lights.

- Dear Romeo,

I ain't no Juliet. I may be awkward, fearless and gorgeous at the same time and you may think I'm a freak, which I actually am. Do you mind? Because I don't.

I know, there's absolutely no need to tell me that I didn't even have the chance to get to know you yet and you're the most trustful person I've ever known, anyways. How does it sound? Need I say I don't mind? From now on, I'm all yours. You have found the key to my box of secrets even without actualy knowing that there was a key. I'm going to tell you everything I feel, everything I think. I know you're a good listener, Romeo. Those shining stars told me, can you see them while reading me? We should be together now, watching them. Can you please come? I would be delighted if you suddenly appear in front of me. There's no need to come riding a horse, I would be more than satisfied if you just come. I've already told you, I don't mind. You could appear walking, barefoot, dirty and dead tired, I would give you my best smile anyway.

So, no matter what you say, I know you ain't no Romeo either, but you are to me. Can't you see?

I've been thinking about you a lot, Romeo. I have decided to write just because I know the other way around is true.

Nice to meet you, I'm charmed.